Andini Haryani

It is 2019! Just like that it is a new year. Just like that we are starting new. Or rather, we are given the illusion that we are starting new. When in reality, every second is a chance to start new. Every day is a chance to start again, as long as you are still breathing.

I do not have new year's resolutions. I have given up on that idea many years ago. I know I wont keep them. Now I just have one grand idea on what I want to do on daily basis: living my honest truth. My whole truth and nothing but the truth.
I am 36 years old. I am no longer interested in being anybody but myself. I am no longer interested in pretending to be something I'm not. I want to be free from pretending, from being scared of other people's judgments. I want to do the things that bring me joy without being scared of them at the same time. I want me to know how much I love me.
My friend's death was a real wake up call for me. I thought he was invincible. I thought he had more time. I thought he…