Where Does My Love Come From?

When I think about love

I think about my daughter

And how my love for her is so massive, it occupies my entire being

She makes me want to do more

To explore more

She makes me curious about life

And people

And feelings

And all the little things in our everyday life

She makes me love my husband more

Her father, the other parent

She makes love makes sense

Does that make sense?

When I think about love

I think about my daughter

And all the ways I love her

Maybe sometimes also the ways I suffocate her with my love

She makes me think of all the women that have blessed upon me their love and wisdom on love throughout my life

My mother, my grandmothers, my great great grandmothers

And my aunties

My friends

My teachers

All the women that were and are in my life

I would not know how to love if it were not for them

They make love makes sense

Does that make sense?

My love comes from deep within me

But also from all the encounters, interactions, conversations,

Tears, laughters, and silence of the women around me and the women before me

There is no me without them

I would not know how to love without them

They make loving my daughter makes sense

Does that make sense?

Andini Haryani

April 24, 2024